Before I wanted to be alone, I wanted to think, to reminisce, and to simply be, me even for a moment.
I’ve waited for this jiffy for a long time, too long that I didn’t notice its advent.
And now that I’ve had it, It seems helpless, boring, tedious, dreary. Though I’ve enjoyed if for a awhile, the fulfillment doesn’t last. Now, Its causing me pain. And it’s been that way for years. I hate it! Hope to get over it.
October 10, 2008.
The worst day of I cimanians.Extra special din pala.
October 9 pa lang lahat settled na. even though there’s so much to accomplish with regards to the undone projects and hanging presentations. Everything about the “Happy-Ending” is established.
We have the house, the people and of course the liquor. It started well, But I know, an hour from now, something will surely happen, the very thing I wish to stop. But why spoil the happiness?
Go on ride the pleasure.
Take shot
Shot
Shot
At hilo na ko..
I felt uneasy with the situation. My classmates started to bugle Chinese-words. By then I knew, DISASTER na. But at isa pang malaking BUT, who am I to spoil the party. Go on!
Laugh
Laugh
Laugh
Laugh
Laugh
Laugh….
(sungay na lang demonyo na)
Party people
Party people
Party people
Party people
……..
Then here comes the site I’m afraid to see. Jen (classmate) started to assault every person that comes near to her. Gosh….. Gulo nab a ito. Good thing magaling communication skills ko. Yun napaki uasapan. Kumalama ang gaga.
Kaya tuloy na nag ligaya.
Party people
Party people
Party people
Party people
TEXT MESSAGE
Ma’am april-Umak
Nandito na ko. San na kayo?
After checking everything and sees that everything is calmed down, I replied.
Opo nandyan nap o!
But then, what a big SHIT! Wala si Ma’am sa overpass ng Centenial. Patay. I’m worried! Kinakabatating na ko. I’ve been there (Kung san si ma’am bumaba) and I know that, that place is the habitat of monstrous persona. I urged my companion and tell him we have to pick up ma’am Leano. Good thing he has Php 14 in his pocket. So we go on picked up our starting -to-be-warm-headed-teacher. Wuisssst. Huuuuuuuuuuu!
Pag tapaos ng paulit ulit na apology, we decided to go.
Yes nasa gate pa lang kame, nararamdaman kong there is something wrong. And my instinct is right. There I see one of my classmates vomiting. SHIT disaster talaga. Dyahe naman kay ma’am.
My conscience is telling me that I shouldn’t have brought my teacher there. Suppose to be she is to enjoy jamming with us not enjoy laughing on us. Being the best among her handled sections it’s a shame to see us this way.
SHIT talaga.
Pero may magagawa pa ba.
Out of this imperfect situation, something perfect makes me smile. Naging close kami ni ma’am. With my constant apology and so as the other, I think she is convinced which make the moment extra special. / A moment that will never be forgotten.
Wag na lang sana maulit.
Running to everything is what I do best
Creating a moment that grant me happiness
I could hardly face the reality
And I still don’t know, why?
Tired of fooling myself
But can’t simply be
I’m a god damn thing to be happy
Oh! Where else could I be?
Escape this old thing lie of mine
Then you’ll see me lay and die.
Ang mga walang hiyang virus ang mahigpit na kalaban ng mga files at computer desktop.
ayon nga kay wikipedia: A computer virus is a computer program that can copy itself and infect a computer without permission or knowledge of the user. The term “virus” is also commonly used, albeit erroneously, to refer to many different types of malware and adware programs. The original virus may modify the copies, or the copies may modify themselves, as occurs in a metamorphic virus. A virus can only spread from one computer to another when its host is taken to the uninfected computer, for instance by a user sending it over a network or the Internet, or by carrying it on a removable medium such as a floppy disk, CD, or USB drive.
. . .nakakainis, napaka kulit at tunay na nakakbwisit.
panira talaga.
pero lam nyo ba na may silbe ang mga virus. (i mean mabuting silbe)
………………
ano
ano
ano
sige nga hulaan mo.
pero alam ko naman hinde mo alam eh.
kaya ito sasabihin ko na.
kasi ganito yun.
nung ano
kasi.
grabe talaga. oct.3 ng hapon pasahan ng dokyumentary namin.
umaga nga oct.3, hinde pa namin na eedit ang video.
hanep talaga nag sama ng panahon.
eh. wala na talagang magaga.
alam nyo ba na pinanis ng pareng virus ang mga kaibigan ko sa inofer nyang tulong.
ang ginawa ko. nilagyan ko ng virus yung blank cd.
hahahaha. e yung tongak kong proffesor maiyak iyak na sa pag ayos ng pinasa naming project, kesyo sayang daw.
hahahaha ang hinde nya alam. wala namang laman ang pinasa namin.
hehehehe, kaya nga ba ang sarap ng may installed virus eh.
basta kaibiganin mo lang sila. mababait naman pala.
LIPI NG AMING BAYAN
Pinoy, Pinay, ‘Pinas
Ating butil lahi, sisidlan ng ating lipi
Sa ating karikit na gunita
Silbing luha bagkos sa buhay na sumawi
Tatlumpung dekada, ikinubli, winasak, tinapatan
Akala ni Juan, umalpas na yaring mga kalaban
Nang itatwa tayo ng mga banyaga
Bagong karimlan pala’y handa ng pumuga.
Singkit ang yumakap, yumurak at naghatol
Sa paraisong, ikinubli ng matagal na kahapon
Oh, liwanag kailan ka nga ba aamo?
‘Tila takipsilim nanaman ang magigi kong amo.
Ginipit, Inipit, Dinusta
‘Yaring singkit mas malala pa pala
Buhay ang binabawi, walang tigil ang pag-uha!
Sa ama, sa ina, sa anak sa mga kapwa kong na-aba!.
Ang pagkaka-ipit sa halos pusikit na karimlan
Ang sumintensya sa kakarampot na karapatan
Mahabang lakaran, walang kabayaran
Ang dusa at sugat sa hapis kong katawan.
Pagpatay, pagbitay, O berdugo mong kamay
Hanggang kailan ba ito, yao naming pag aalay
Dagat at dugo, hindi na mapag sino, Ano ang ano?
Ang paghihintay ko ba’y sinlayo na ng abo.
Mga inang nagsisitangis sa dinaranas na pighati
Sintang bayan ko, O tiisin ang lahat ng mga tiisin
Sa mga ulila at balo sa mga bilanggong lupagi
Minamahal kong ‘Pinas, saglit at ngingiti din ang api.
Saklolo, Saklolo, Maawa kayo!
Samyo nitong Umaga, Oh! Bakit hindi?
Patanglawan, buwan ma’y humihikbi
Kailangan na ang pag-kilos, tara sa may puti
Kaibigang ibayo, tulong mo’y aking hiling.
Sa bartolinan ng piitang kapuluan
Heto ang puti, iniabot yari nilang pag-alwan
Pagkalag sa posas, balato nila sa inang bayan
Oh! Kay sarap ng buhay, ‘pag ibayo’y iyong katawan.
Sa himpapawid at parang, Laya na sanang sumasagwan
Nang may biglang humarang, sumaksak sa aking likuran
Bagong kabanta, sumisigaw! Wala na bang katapusan
Sila’y na liwanag, tuluyan na bang pumapanaw.
Ang pagka-ipit tila ‘di na matatapos
Sigarilyong tabako, kalian ba mauupos
Sa ating pag kilos na tungo sa paghulagpos
Kalabang mang-aapi, kailan ba mauubos.
Ano ba ang kailangan ng akala kong kaibigan
Bumaliktad at ngayo’y naniningil na ng pautang
Porsyentong hiling kay hirap na bitawan,
Ngunit aking gagawin dahil mahal ko itong bayan.
At sa wakas, Oh hiyas ng dagat-silangan
Ang paghiyaw ay tuluyan ng matutuldukan
Ibo’y lumipad, umalpas ng walng pag-aalinlangan
Malinis, walang hapis. Tunay ngang kalayaan.
Wagayway, Wagayway
Oh! Kay tagal kang hinintay.
Bandila kong simbolo ng matagal na pagka-himlay
Lupaing kasuyo ng buwan,
Ngayo’y kahit araw ay kumaway
Kay sarap ng amihan lalo’t di nakakamamatay.
Laying ngumiti, hiwaga’y pumipili
Liwas na pag-idlip, babangon bagong lipi
Sa mapa mo, ‘wag ipagkait si Juan ay masipi
At sa matagal na pagkapipi, hayo’t isigaw:
REPUBLIKA NG PILIPINAS
Magipit ma’y wala ng maka-aapi.
Ang korni talaga.
hehehehe:>
Pyesa ito na gagamitin sa aming sabayang pag bigkas.
at akalain mo ba namang ako ang gumawa niyan.
Sh*t.
para akong tanga kanina.
i wanted to talk to her but i refuse to do so.
i tried. but i really dont know what to say.
all i can do is laugh. ( the very thing i do everytime i’m on the midst of devastation)??????
which made me feel so pathetic.
i hate it this way. but i know i ask for it. there is nobody to blame but my careless being.
everytime i look at her the more i wreck the hurt!
i really don’t expect her to be there, and more that i was’nt ready to face her.
ng nakita ko sya.
grabe kinabahan ako.
bigla akong nahiya. and i felt that i should’nt be there. parang sinira ko lang gabi nya.
I’m not ready with my dialogue, with my speech.. mostly this days that storms are all over my place.
(though i really miss her. so much.)
It all started when we are elected as an officer of the speech club.
as classmates. we barely talk to each other. like,! a day will pass that i wont even notice if she’s absent or not.
but when we started working together, a relation was beaded, a thing that we dont notice at all.
but though we barely tagged each other as “friends”, i know deep within we are.
ewan ako. maybe i was just too foolish to hurt her. to dissapoint her.
and at this point. i realize how sorry i was suppose to be. with what i’ve done.
i’ve lied and i want to confess. but i dont know to whom should i.
i should not do that.. now i realize
male ang pag kaka alam ko.
and again
I HATE MYSELF.
i dont know till when. maybe ’till i stop dissapointing people around me, mostly those whom i loved.
Tha painful thing in missing your friends is the facing the fact that you could never be back on the times where only laughing compliments the crowd. Where touches cure and just a snap heals. When you feel secure and still comfortable even with eyes roaming around. that same eyes taht critisize and ye appreciates. Eyes taht chastise but give pieces of advice that helps. That same eyes I wish to see again.
Zen, Ana, Neth
Jeff, Yorka, Leah, Len, Vine, Arquers, Cy-An, Apoli, Jym-p, Ceromines, Kim, Nina, Mariz
Palos, Dado Dayday, Dr. Tutoy, Teddy, Binay Binaytog
Haist miss ko na Talaga sila. Lalo ang hometon ko.
.<high school>.
Why can’t i avoid cheating, from the school papers to the test, up to the cards I sent. Everything is a mere cheat – I’m a thief indeed. How could I deny it, cheating’s what makes me.
Am I too unfair? Or just a victim of my protocols?
I hate to blame them, I hate to treat them as a cause, but they seem to be the root of everything. They are the widow of my desire and the face of my whole being. They are the reason why I have to push myself to the limit until I reach my capacity and touch the forefinger of such an evil desire.
They ask me more, when In fact they are pulling me off.
They demand me better while they are molding me at worst…
They chastise me best, when I do just best and kill me infinitely for the never-ending shadow of my unusual blunder.
Why can’t they just accept me as I am? I’m born with such genetic code and I can’t change that. I can’t be somebody who is not me. Isn’t that simple or there eyes have been folded and is set as a programmed computer.
Each morning, each day, each sounds: the bell of a ring, the door that clings, the bark of a dog… each sound the same. Everything leads my ear to the same sound. The tune of my protocols!.
I wish I never learn to play with them. I wish we never jammed. ‘Cause now whatever I do, no matter how I tried to cover my ears, still sound goes in.
I was trapped by the road in this faux pas. How could I escape? How could I run away, if each cross just leads me back to the same old way? If each thwart just pushes me to be back.
I feel like I’m a snail trap on its shell. Everytime I wish to scrawl out, there’s a naughty almost ready to get me back. Like a bird trap on its haul, it may pass on the barb but not on the wall of the house. Same as a crying baby, left on one corner of the house, keep screaming and crying out loud, trying to let everyone know that she’s hungry, but nobody understands. Nobody!
PROFILE:
Name: Marimar
Age: 78
Sex: Undefine
Status: Multi widower
Want to know more on him. Want to see him when his not in custume.?
yan talaga sya. papable diva.
now hus gona say na sya isang pederasyon.
Keep holding on
‘Cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through
Just stay strong
‘Cause you know I’m here for you, I’m here for you
There’s nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There’s no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
‘Cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through
So far away
I wish you were here
Before it’s too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I’ll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah
Keep holding on
‘Cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through
Just stay strong
‘Cause you know I’m here for you, I’m here for you
There’s nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There’s no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
‘Cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through
Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing’s gonna change, nothing’s gonna change destiny
Whatever’s meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da
Keep holding on
‘Cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through
Just stay strong
‘Cause you know I’m here for you, I’m here for you
There’s nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There’s no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
‘Cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through
Keep holding on
Keep holding on
There’s nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There’s no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
‘Cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through 
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