para akong tanga kanina.
i wanted to talk to her but i refuse to do so.
i tried. but i really dont know what to say.
all i can do is laugh. ( the very thing i do everytime i’m on the midst of devastation)??????
which made me feel so pathetic.
i hate it this way. but i know i ask for it. there is nobody to blame but my careless being.
everytime i look at her the more i wreck the hurt!
i really don’t expect her to be there, and more that i was’nt ready to face her.
ng nakita ko sya.
grabe kinabahan ako.
bigla akong nahiya. and i felt that i should’nt be there. parang sinira ko lang gabi nya.
I’m not ready with my dialogue, with my speech.. mostly this days that storms are all over my place.
(though i really miss her. so much.)
It all started when we are elected as an officer of the speech club.
as classmates. we barely talk to each other. like,! a day will pass that i wont even notice if she’s absent or not.
but when we started working together, a relation was beaded, a thing that we dont notice at all.
but though we barely tagged each other as “friends”, i know deep within we are.
ewan ako. maybe i was just too foolish to hurt her. to dissapoint her.
and at this point. i realize how sorry i was suppose to be. with what i’ve done.
i’ve lied and i want to confess. but i dont know to whom should i.
i should not do that.. now i realize
male ang pag kaka alam ko.
I HATE MYSELF.
i dont know till when. maybe ’till i stop dissapointing people around me, mostly those whom i loved.